Since November till today, I’ve been to 4 weddings, so that means its an average of one wedding per month. Have already invites to 2 more in June and November. I know I am already at that age where my peers are all getting hitched one by one. One question that is constantly bombarded to me is “ So, when is it your turn?” or “So, got boyfriend or not?” by relatives and friends of parents (sometimes I am also guilty of asking that questions to friends). Although I don’t really care and most of the time my answer would be “Aiyah, chill la!” or “too many to choose from.” or “ Wah, you think so easy ah, tomorrow I go shopping la”, it really makes me wonder about it. Maybe you think I am worried or desperate, since I am writing about this now, but in actual fact I don’t think about it like OMG, I am getting older and need to get married now. I know everyone says now is the best time to get married as you wouldn’t want to wait too long to start having a family and all that biological clock blabbers you get. But am I ready for such things?
I still question it all the time whenever someone tells me that they are getting married. I am very happy for them and get all excited for their wedding, but when I put myself in their shoe and get a little shiver down my spine. It’s not like I am a person who doesn’t not believe in marriage, I DO! but I guess for me it ONE BIG HUGE ASS step in life that I rather not make a mistake. I know I think too much when it comes to relationships and close friends of mine think I’m to analytical with it. People say that’s a flaw as it makes me very very guarded with my feelings. They tell me that I think too much, which have come to realize that I do. One of my many flaws I guess.
However this flaw of mine is something that makes me wonder. What has happened to me to make me the way I am? I feel that I am a very emotional person, I cry at weddings, I cry when I watch Oprah, I cry at the tiniest things – cry baby is my nickname. I cry and get all chocked up at romantic movies and romantic gestures, yet when it comes to my own relationships I become this over analytical person. I haven’t experienced horrible heartbreaks and yet so guarded like everyone is out there to get me! Yes, I am strange!
Anyway, I hope that this flaw of mine doesn’t make me into this bitter person who despises relationships and end up a horrible spinster that everyone loves to hate. 
Damn emo right this post? Ish……Cannot like this…so here is something for you to laugh about!
Most hilarious book I have ever bought! RIP Michael!
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